Overcoming fear and alchohol addiction
All my life I have suffered from terrible fears due to traumas I was subjected to as a child, and I grew up not able to cope with life. I was adopted at an early age, and was always desperately unhappy and anxious about everything. I knew both of my parents, but was abandoned and this was always a deep issue with me. I grew up to be a rebellious young girl, well into my twenties and thirties, always doing things my own way and really suffered the consequences of this, through bad choices and wrong relationships. Alcohol slowly crept into my life, bringing great destruction both to my life and the lives of my children. During these years I became a total broken wreck, both physically, emotionally, spiritually, and mentally, and I even tried to take my own life on several occasions. I had always known God in my life, as I was brought up a very strict Catholic, but I did not really know Him. I went from one marriage to another, always making a wrong choice as the men I married were usually other drinkers and I was very co-dependent. I went to The Gate in 1984, and it was a slow process, as I went back and forwards to drink for several years. I had always for prayed for sobriety, and in 1989 God removed the desire for drink completely from me. He has let me see that rebellion and self-will only bring destruction. If we give our life over to His care, He shows us the way. In June 2002 I was baptized for the second time, and have found a great love in the Lord. He has brought me out of the darkness into the light. He is the only answer and I love him with my whole heart. He saved me from the pit of hell and blessed me with sobriety and peace. Although there are many traumas I still have to deal with, He always shows me a way to deal with them.